Life...

To get what you want in life you'll have to work hard for it..
But what if working hard isn't enough??

My work life is going no where.. Zero achievements.. Zero aim.. Zero targets..
I can't get the jobs that I want.. And jobs that want me are half Fucked jobs..
Thus, work sucks..

My love life is not going well.. It could be my expectations..
But the thing is I only expect an eternal love.. To be able to grow old together..
In this era and country, I don't believe it exists..
Even with potential partners, other factors in life will break you up..
All these is because I am afraid that I am not able to provide a blissful life to my other half..
And in the end it ends with heart breaks.. I will never wanna break anyone's heart again..

My family and my social life is the only thing that I can be proud of..
I know I can always lean back on them and seek comfort..

Is my happiness finally here??

I am not afraid to go into a relationship..

I am just afraid that I go into a relationship with the wrong person..

But there's the saying you can never know unless you try.. Sooooo...

I hope to use "we" the next time round..

Courage!

cour⋅age 

–noun
1. the quality of mind or spirit that enables a person to face difficulty, danger, pain, etc., without fear; bravery.
2. Obsolete. the heart as the source of emotion.—Idiom
3. have the courage of one's convictions, to act in accordance with one's beliefs, esp. in spite of criticism.

I want to help and I want to go but I do not have the courage.. What I need is conviction.. So where can I find conviction??

Final stretch of the race

Its the last stretch of the road.. Bored of it and definitely sick of it but it is the only way to finish it..

After these years, i think that the only thing I take away from the institute is the friends I made and found. Not a lot but I think that they are good enough..

Ok.. enough of these.. time to carry on..

Talent wins games, but teamwork and intelligence wins championships.
Michael Jordan

Time of changes

Its been a while since my last entry.. Partly because I was busy but mostly lazy.. Hahahahaha.. Since there is 3hrs and 38mins before my operation I thought I should write down something for myself.

This op is for the better so I will want to change some of my goals as well.. For the better of coz..

Isn't it funny to ask for someone to care for you, wouldn't that be just a fake or temporary thing.. So it comes down to: When you give you dun expect returns.. But ultimately if there is no returns why still keep giving?? Doesn't it just mean that you are nothing to the person??

After this Op things will change.. I will change..

But I will continue to love my family and friends around me.. I hold all of you dear..

Champions League Nite~~

It was a long nite~~

Began with dinner with the guys and gals at this Korean place. The food wasn't fantastic but edible la.

Then was the movie - Nite at the museum II. It was ok. Nothing fantastic though.

Played some PES before the game then was the game.

Barca scored just after 10 minutes! NOT A GD START%#^%$&%$

And United nvr got back. It was the better team that won the game. Kudos to Barca.

The Cruise

Back from cruise and more shit from work. OMG!!!

Anyway its was a very fulfiling trip. Won some money and had fun with my "aunties" and siblings.

First night we went straight to the western restaurant i think it was called the Bella Vista. Anyway the food there was ok only la.

We started with some bread(it was quite hard but still gd) then came the soup. The onion soup is so salty lo. Main course was steak but the beef wasn't very tender but the gravvy was quite ok. Then was desert time it was lime shebert, nice.

After that me, jeremy, shiya, winona and alyssa went to had get some tatoos. Mine was a wolf. Then we went to the arcade we had a game buffet, $25 for 3hrs and 30 minutes. It was worth the money, I play so many games I think it would have cost me more than $50.

Then it was casino time. Didn't play much though but still manage to win ard $200 or so. I played the Texas Holdem, its a very interesting game lo. I think I may go to genting to play it again. Maybe on th 30th but nothing has been confirm yet.

Next day slept till ard 11. What a waste of time. Then went for lunch at the chinese restaurant. After that is Monoploy time played till 3 then we play mini golf. Took me 16 stroke to complete a 5 hole course lo. hahha. Shiya did it in 11 or 12 lo. hhahaha.

Then came the special. We started playing mini hockey in the lift lobby. Good thing it was on the top floor so human traffic was minimum. It was good fun. luckily we did break anything. hahaha. I was a team with Alyssa and jeremy was with shiya. Sianz. We lost 2-1. haha.

Then we went to the karoke pub and then dinner. Me and jeremy were so tired that we fell aslp during dinner. And thanks to the slp we manage to stay up all nite for the last day. And that nite I won another 200+ or so. Shiok ah.!! Next morning is stoning time. Slpt for most of the afternoon then went or dinner then went to cathay to meet the gang for the movie. We watched the long awaited Angels and Demons. It was as good as they say it was.